Trapped.

Lately I've been feeling trapped. By everyone. In everything. I'm trapped by my parents with school, tv, the internet, bed. I'm trapped by school with the amount of study and homework I have to do. Right now I'm trapped by being sick. I can't go outside and see my friends. I can't go outside just for a walk. I can't go outside to get away from my life. I can't disappear into the world of my book seeing as I don't have the next one. I don't have the money to get the next one, nor can I go out to get the next one cause I'm sick.

I have now gotten to the point of being trapped where I don't even want to try and get away from everything. Anytime I seem to try something goes wrong. I get sick, or I have too much to do at home or with school. I haven't seen any of my friends in a week, and I've only talked to one of them during that time. I want to get out. Sometimes I just sit and look out my window with music playing in the background, wishing I was somewhere else. No matter where you are, the sky will always be the same sky right? That's something that never really changes. I guess I'm looking for a change in my life, a huge change. I keep myself in this little cycle of doing really well in everything, and then BAM! It all falls apart and I can't seem to get back ontop of anything. I stay in my little hole, digging deeper and deeper, not able to get out, until something is said to me. Usually by you. I hate this cycle, and they only way I can see it breaking is if I get away. If I go somewhere so far away and nobody knows where I am.